#Soulsurgery Having Low Self-esteem When It Comes To My Body And Why I have Considered Getting Butt Implants

I have thought about writing this post for a really long time. But I haven’t had the courage to do it, until now. It’s a really sore spot  for me too write about, for some it might be a small issue. But this has been haunting me for many years. Since I started my blog I have had a really hard time opening up about insecurities and my personal issues. I don’t want to come across as a victim or for that matter, people taking advantage of my insecurities and using it against me. It took me a while, to realize that showing emotions. Doesn’t mean that I’m weak or a victim.

I have been dealing with low self-esteem on everyday bases, I have never been fully confident. From a kid til I was 15 years, I have always been the chubby kid. But I always had skinny legs and arms. So my fat areas was mainly on my back, stomach and face. But when I turned 16, my body started to change and I lost a lot of weight. Which I at that time, was so thankful for. For all of a sudden my wardrobe options was unlimitied and I gained a lot of confidence. But this was just for a short time. I have always till this day, had a hard time gaining weight, no matter how much I eat or train. It’s  just something that seems unrealistic for me to reach my goal weight (Right now, I weigh 74 kg, which is the heaviest I’ve weighed). This has caused me to have a really low self-esteem. It’s something that I’m struggling with everyday and it doesn’t really make it that much easier when people on the streets notices it. Comments on it. And it’s have effected me so much, that I have considered getting surgery to look thicker. So my figure won’t look as skinny as it is. Especially being a influencer on social media, I feel pressured to look good at all times. I have never been a person that has felt pressured to follow trends, but watching people on Instagram, with thick and muscular bodies. Has made a really big impact on how I see myself.

For a really long time I have considered getting cosmetics surgery, butt implants. So my body would appear more thick. It has even gone so far that I have even found a plastic surgeon, that I almost made an appointment.

#Selflove! But I’m starting to learn that I have to appreciate the way that I look and love me, for who I’m. Love myself for the way God created me and remembering that God made every person different for a reason. It has taken me a really long time to realize this and it’s something that I need to constant remind myself. It’s a working progress, but I know that God is watching and it’s something that I will overcome with time.

 Au Revoir, peepz!

Did I Really Just Spend 89$ On Skincare?

Did I really just spend 89$ on skincare? Yes, I did! It hit me, that I spend so much time on looking good, spending an hour applying make up almost everyday. But not taking care of my skin and I feel so stupid now when I think about it. So for 2017 lmao, halfway through the year. I promised myself to take good care of my skin.

I have been the worst, at taking care of my skin the last couple of years. Normally after a long day of wearing make up, I usually use my coconut oil or just a regular Nivea soap to cleanse. And that’s the worst, that I can do to my face, but in my mind I never thought it would be that big of a deal. For one, I always moisturize my face with coconut oil. So I thought, that would help my skin go back to it’s “normal” state. I have always heard and been told how good coconut oil is, but I have realized that’s to a certain extent.

Last week I treated my friend Ayse and I with a facial treatment, here in Copenhagen. We got a really good treatment, mainly focused on going deep and rinsing our poors. Which I personally felt like I needed. Which I found out wasn’t the case with my skin. I had a good conversation with the cosmetologist about my skin. She told me that I basically have good skin, but I had small dry patches/dots from washing my face with soap.

With that said, I finally made myself purchase these two Ph Formula products. The E.X.F.O cleanse is for rinsing, after wearing make up and it can also be used as a face mask. The other product, the P.O.S.T recovery cream is a moisturizer, to keep the skin fresh throughout the day.

She used these products before and after the treatment and my skin felt so AMAZING. I had a hard time not touching my face. It felt so clean and fresh. So I would definitely recommend spending your money on some good products when it comes to your skin. If you don’t know how to treat your skin, going to the cosmetologist is worth spending money on. Besides giving you a facial treatment, they can also tell you how you should treat your type of skin.

Au Revoir, peepz!

Naked Skin Ultra Definition Powder Foundation In Dark Neutral By Urban Decay

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I thought it was about time, that I made a beauty post for you guys. I have been using naked skin ultra definition powder foundation by Urban Decay for a while. It gives the perfect natural coverage and feels so light on the skin. I have gotten a lot of compliments, since I started wearing it. Urban Decay is definitely a brand, that will be my main go to, from now on.

Jeg synes det var på tide at jeg skrev et beauty post. Her på det sidste har min foundation blevet erstattet med min nye favourit puder, naked skin ultra definition powder foundation by Urban Decay. Den giver det perfekte naturlig dækning og føles så let på huden. Jeg har fået så mange komplimenter siden jeg er begyndt at bruge den og jeg kan helt sikkert også se en forbedring med min hud (vil forklare dybere i en anden post). Urban Decay er helt sikker det mærke jeg vil begynde at købe min make up produkter fra.

2016120623080581630_sbigAu Revoir, peepz!

I Went Blonde

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If you follow me on my Instagram or Facebook page, you already know that I went blonde last Thursday. Finally after last year, DIY bad experience. I went to a hairdresser in Copenhagen and got my hair colored by a professional. Something, I definitely should have done last year. I went through two bleaching, the first round for an hour and the second one for 20 minutes. Words can’t even describe the pain I went through. Intolerably! But totally worth it. I’m probably going to keep this color for some while. Can’t wait to do some shoots now, though. New hair, new me.

Au Revoir, peepz!

I went blonde